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Snapshot 2000 - Jay(January 2000)

In this podcast Jay talks about coming out and first sexual experience.

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The abstract for the recording "Snapshot 2000 - Jay," captured in Auckland, Aotearoa New Zealand, concerns an individual's personal journey of self-discovery and acceptance of their sexual identity. The narrative encapsulates the social pressures and internal conflict experienced during the 1960s, a time when societal norms and cultural expectations significantly challenged the notion of being openly gay, especially in certain cultural contexts.

The speaker recounts recognizing their attraction to the same gender since their teenage years. Growing up in an Asian culture, where there often exists a heightened stigma surrounding homosexuality, contributed to suppressing these feelings. The individual discusses the societal expectation to conform, which led to a heterosexual relationship and an engagement to a woman. However, a lingering sense of unhappiness and the realization of living an inauthentic life prompted the speaker to call off the engagement. Seeking to discover their true self and to escape the weight of family expectations, the speaker decided to move abroad to study, using education as a cover for their real motivation.

Canada became the landscape for their real introduction to gay culture. It was there that the individual began frequenting gay bars and truly understanding and embracing their sexuality. The speaker shares insights into gaining confidence and realizing that being attracted to the same gender was not a mistake. This newfound clarity and self-acceptance culminated in the speaker coming out to their family and revealing their sexual orientation.

The sharing of the coming out experience with family highlights the varying reactions, from outright rejection to acceptance. Despite some family members struggling to come to terms with the revelation, the speaker was prepared and independent, willing to face the possibility of family estrangement. One sibling stood out for being predominantly supportive, acting as a pillar for the individual during this process. This highlights the complex dynamics of familial relationships when it comes to accepting a family member's sexuality.

During their time in the military, the speaker shares their first sexual experience with someone of the same gender. This encounter was unplanned, and despite initial feelings of guilt and awkwardness, its repetition highlighted a complex exploration of sexual desire. This account sheds light on the individual's internal struggle and the external factors that contribute to understanding one's sexuality.

The individual's narrative culminates in living openly as a gay person, embracing authenticity, and understanding the journey to self-acceptance. They underscore the importance of finding confidence within oneself before deciding to come out. The speaker compares the difference in acceptance between Western friends and those from Asian backgrounds, underscoring cultural differences. Ultimately, the speaker emphasizes the necessity of living truthfully for oneself.

The recording provides a snapshot of the emotional and societal challenges faced by an individual coming to terms with their sexuality amidst cultural prejudices and expectations. It also discusses how geographical relocation can serve as an avenue to explore and accept one's identity. This story reflects broader themes of self-acceptance, the pursuit of happiness, and the impact of societal and cultural norms on individual lives.

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Record date:24th January 2000
Interviewer:Gareth Watkins
Location:Auckland, Aotearoa New Zealand
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Archive:The master recording is archived at the Alexander Turnbull Library (OHDL-004107).