In this digital story Ivan talks about growing up in Malaysia and dealing with depression.

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This project was funded by a NZ Mental Health Media Grant and proudly supported by the Ministry of Health's Like Minds, Like Mine Programme and the Mental Health Foundation of New Zealand.


"My only goal was to make myself look as normal as possible. It seemed to be the only answer to my life because I didn’t want to embarrass my family. I grew up in Malaysia with my mum, dad and three sisters. My father always taught us to be good people, not to live for yourself but to live for others. The teaching of Confucius strongly penetrates the whole of malaysian chinese society. You have to carry on your family name, you need to marry, have children and then look after your parents. And because... read full transcript

Citation information

Record date:2010
Interviewer:Gareth Watkins